Well, I'm fucking pissed...

I hate to admit this, but I was just watching Home and Away, a popular Australian soap opera which has taken on a lesbian relationship in its main storyline.
From the moment I read about this in the April edition of LOTL magazine I knew that it would be canned, and it seems that it was set up to fail. "The plot, which sees ploice officer Charlie Buckton, played by Esther Anderson, fall in love with trawler worker Joey Collins, played by Kate Bell, has already raised reactions from conservative groups about the "message" sent to the program's mostly teen audience." When I first read this article in the magazine I was horrified and annoyed by some of the reactions people had had towards the plot shift. The director of Pro-Family Perspectives, Angela Conway, described the plot shift as being "quite sexualised", although in the actual show no more than simple kissing has been shown to the audience, much less than what is shown between straight partnerships.
However, praise has been given to this daring move by the show, by people such as psychologist Dr Janet Hall, who believes that the show is just "reflecting society". It is a strong belief of mine that we should be allowed to experience all walks of life on television, we shouldn't have to search for it in the dark and worry about the right or wrongness of what we are looking for. It truly does anger me that they are going to can the lesbian relationship, it upsets me that 100 000 viewers have turned their backs on the television show and mothers have called the station expression that "they did not want their children exposed to same-sex relationships in a family show." 
What has happened to society? 
Have we as a community not made any progress in our fight for equality?
Why can't straight people see what they are doing to us?
Living Lesbian Blogger
Source: http://www.lotl.com/default2.asp?Category=507 ; LOTL April Edition.

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I'm going in...

Sorry I haven't been posting much. Half yearly exams and other such schoolwork likes to get in the way.

Anyway, I have new news. 

There's this girl at school, aah, doesn't that sound familiar? And I bet you can guess what I'm going to say...

And I happen to fancy this girl at school. We haven't spoken, not really, but I have been getting a lot of positive eye contact, not a definite sign of romantic attraction, but a definite sign of some attraction. 

I've decided to change my approach with this girl as my past approaches have not worked. When school starts back up I'll be going for the first few days to have some exams, she happens to hang out before school right next to where the exams are being held. So, I'm going to get off my ass and ask her out for a milkshake. Sweet, innocent, not neccesarily a date.

My theory is that if she says yes, and I'm confident that she will, then she is probably a lesbian. My basis for this theory is that how many straight girls would honestly say yes to another girl taking them out for a milkshake? Especially if it could be misinterpretted as a date.

Anyway, if she says no it won't matter too much because she is in the year below me, so I won't ever have to see her again if I don't want to. The only times I ever see her these days are in the hallways and sometimes at Pender Place.

Ok, I'm done ranting, 

Even so, I hope you enjoyed reading,

Living Lesbian Blogger.

She's straight...

So, I found out the orientation of the girl I was temporarily infatuated with, she's straight. It didn't take long to find out, thankfully, in fact, I found out the second time that I met her on the train platform. She waved me over, so I went over, we exchanged words, "How was your weekend?", "How was yours?" simple little pieces of shit like that. Well, after this exchange there came the kicker, "I'm waiting here for my boyfriend, but he's running late."

Now, I had nothing to say to this except for a little ''Oh''. It wasn't so much depressing as annoying, I met a girl, I thought I could've liked her, but she was tied down to her straightness. It doesn't bother me, of course, I got over it since it happened like three days ago, it doesn't bother me at all.

And do you want to know why? Well, you probably don't, but I'm going to tell you anyway. It doesn't bother me because I realised last night that, even if we were to become a couple, we probably wouldn't have had anything in common and she seemed like the kind of girl who would be pretty needy in a relationship. 

Anyway, I'll keep ya'll posted on the happenings in my life. Cheers.

Met a girl...

Hello there everyone, long time, no blog,

I am so, so very sorry for not continuing this blog through to the end of my Summer holidays, but honestly, I had absolutely NOTHING interesting to talk to you about, until now.

As you know I still go to school, high school, and I have started Year 11 as of the beginning of February this year. However, you probably don't know that I go to a high school that is roughly an hour away from where I live and therefor I have to catch a train to and from school every day. I, personally, enjoy this five-day-a-week ritual because it gives me time to chill out on my own and hang with my best friend.

Anyway, I was waiting on the train platform yesterday afternoon, waiting for the train to take me to my cross-over point at which time I would get on the train that would take me home. I was there alone for about five minutes when this dark-skinned girl came onto my side of the platform, there were no empty seats, but the closest half-empty seat was mine, so, she sat down. I acknowledged her presence briefly, giving her a quick, subtle once over. We both sat in complete silence for about five minutes. 

In this five minute period I carefully tried to signal to this girl that I was gay, first by taking out my pencil case (which has the gay pride flag badge on it, and a badge that say "Born gay, fabulous by choice.") and setting it down in the space between us, with the badges facing her and second by taking out my folder, which is laiden with various images of Katherine Moennig, and carefully 'rearranging' all of the books in my folder, all of which happen to have images of women on them. 

I was pleasantly surprised to find though that this girl, whose name I will not disclose, wanted to embark into a conversation with me after the subtle little dance I did. It gave me some hope as to what her sexuality might be, and I am PRAYING that she is a lesbian. Anyway, we exchanged small talk, simple stuff like what subjects we were both taking, subjects we would never take in a million years, I asked her what country she was from after she told me that she had only been in Australia for about a year, etc. Small talk.

The absolute BEST part was when I had to get off the train and she said that she'd "See me around". 

God, I hope I see her again.

A little bit of philosophy

Life as a woman, as a lesbian, in the 21st Century is a lot easier than it was 100, or so, years ago, but even now there are difficulties that our generation is still facing.

For those of us still semi-closeted, and the offspring of adults from the Baby Boom of the 1950's, it can be very difficult to find the will and motivation to un-closet ourselves, especially to our old-fashioned parents. I personally haven't 'come-out' to my parents yet, and I am still struggling to find a good reason to do it at all.

However, technology as we know it offers young gay people easier and more carefree means of 'coming out' to difficult people. MySpace and MSN are two popular methods that I have used to 'come-out' to close friends and family.

But for some the acceptance and 'coming-out' process is only the beginning, the actual being gay part can be the hardest.

Throughout history there is evidence of homosexuality being an accepted practice. In Classical Greece homosexuality was praised, and the Greek Poet, Sapphos of Lesbos, gave her name to Lesbianism. Likewise, in Confucian China homosexuality was tolerated and flourished, with lesbianism being common in the woman's quarters, up until the early 19th Century.

Thankfully, now in the 21st Century, it is still legal to be a homosexual in Greece and China, and most parts of the world. Though, there are still too many countries in which homosexuality is considered illegal, a few of these countries are Libya, Morocco and Mozambique in Africa, India, Singapore and Malaysia in Asia, and Cuba, Chile and Ecudor in the Americas.

Even though being gay is legal in a number of countries there are still laws which hinder the rights of gay and lesbian people. There are only a handful of countries in America and Europe whom have legalized same sex marriage, these countries include Canada, Norway, Spain, Belgium and the Netherlands, the adoption of a child by a same sex couple is very rarely legal, even in wealthier countries, such as England and the USA.

We have come a long way since the beginning of our fight for rights in the early 1950's, buy we still have a long way to go before we are truly equal to our heterosexual counterparts.

Hello hello.

So, as you know I created this blog account, Living Lesbian, last night and this is the first post I have managed to get into it. I literally ran home from work to put my first post to you lovely people in Cyberspace.

This Blog will essentially be as it is titled: a Blog about my experiences as a member of a minority group. You don't have to read it, you don't have to react to it and you don't have to be influenced by it. I do ask though that you respect what I write.

There really won't be anything interesting to read about until the beginning of February when I begin Year 11, that's when the fun will really begin. Until that time I will post mostly about me, things I like, how I came to the realization that I was a lesbian and other interesting bits about my life.

Thank you for reading,

Living Lesbian Blogger